Getting there.....slowly

Its been 4 months since i filmed a crochet video tutorial
I sat down about an hour ago and went to turn on the camera and I completely bawled my eyes out :'( 
Many tissues and lots of distracting myself on YouTube and Facbook I feel much better 
I just sat down to film the first part of the tutorial (the chain) and had to turn the camera off to chain the rest that i need for the project. I thought I would share with you the real life behind the camera.
Grief really really sucks ! Oh gawd does it suck ! I am only about 6 weeks in and I am over it already ! I know I know, it takes time and bla bla bla but is it time to be back to work yet ? LOL
I never take time for myself before all this cancer/looking after mum/hospital visits stuff but now its time for me and to get back on track with the normal boring life stuff (oh gawd how I have missed you my boring life) 
It feels so good (now that I have stopped crying) to be back behind the video camera and hopefully this Friday (no promises) get you a video tutorial that is long over due :)

Raise your glass of wine/fizzy/juice/coffee/tea or in my case water and say - here is to a happy, healthy and awesome life !
We are so very blessed to wake up every day and I plan never to forget that 
Im gona stop there before I start the tears again and get cracking on my chain stitches YAY !!!!!!!!!
​Clare xx